Its been so long since my last confession..lol. I have been naughty. Not as naughty as I could have been but naughty enough to gain five pounds. I can totally see that this is something I will be challenged with for the rest of my life. I am OK with that. Just as long as I am aware of my limits. Which after a year I am totally aware of.
I have been struggling with weight loss and fat loss. I want to see the scale drop but I want to form lean muscle. I couldn't do my exercises they way I want to and be on Medifast. The calories wouldn't allow me to safely. I made the decision to join Weight Watchers. Which is allowing me to eat well balanced meals, lower my calorie intake and yet have enough to still do my work outs which have lengthened to about 1.5 to 2 hours daily.
So while I have been working out like a nut job. I was allowing myself to eat. I figured. I worked out I can allow myself this treat. Ugh. What a giant mistake. Its not like I ate cake. Its the damn carbs. They are a death trap set out for the unwary wonders and kick you in the seat of your pants...literally.
So here I am. Still wearing the same sizes but still struggling. Its a tough journey. And one that will never end. But I am still enjoying my journey. I will never go back to the weight I was. I will never again be in a size 20. I will never again be embarrassed to go out.
Missed my blog. I will try not to be away so long next time!
