was just rereading the last few blogs and had to giggle. I have had a thrilling week. The writing the slight sight sign of abs firming up. The looks from the old man. Yeah I am totally starting to feel sexy again. I missed that feeling and didn’t even know I missed it. I used to love seeing guys turn and look. Course it may have been because I was wearing something funny but I am chalking it up to they found me attractive. Its amazing what a new dose of self confidence can do to you. It also goes to show how deep our issues really lay. I always envied the woman who were for lack of better words “big”, who happened to have confidence in spades. It just wasn’t me. I felt eyes looking at me and imagined what they were saying. Like “I don’t want to be that fat!” Yeah. That was not a healthy state of mind to be in. But now I feel liberated. I guess I am I lost almost 60 pounds of unhealthy thoughts. Why wouldn’t I feel sexy again? So here I am enjoying the thrill and enjoying the new found experience that it will lend to my writing.
(I IS Happy)
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