XL Butt and M Top?

Well after todays original post. I figured I needed a boost in my internal morale squad. So I went shopping. It never fails to amaze me when I can reach for something knowing I might be able to fit into that randomly picked item. I dont have to worry about looking at the bottom of the pile to hunt down the ever elusive 18/20. And yes it worked yet again. However I fail to understand why I am still an XL or 14 bottom and I can fit perfectly into a M top. I have scratched my head pondering this my entire trip home. I dont get it. Why wont my butt catch up to the rest of me? So here I wake up this morning one pound lighter..I can fit into Medium tops now..HOLY TIHS!!! But But But...Grrrr this damn Butt!! Oh well. I look good and sooner or later that butt will no longer be an issue. Attached is my new Medium sized pic. So happy with my results thus far. Its like the bestest birthday present I gave myself. And in two months is my one year Mediversary...

Forever and Ever Amen!

It’s been a bit since I wrote a blog.  I have been a bit wonky in my losses and lost my UMFWL (Unadulterated Motivation For Weight loss).   I took myself off of the 4/2.  I stopped exercising.  I went back to the basics.  And Its finally starting to pay off.  This is one of those moments where your thrilled to weigh in daily.  Today I showed my first loss in a month one pound down and still have 5 days till weigh in.  It’s so easy to fall into bad habits.  Stress, Work just basic elements of life help sway us from our everyday goals leading to our one big win: Weight loss!  I fell into it with the 4/2.  I allowed myself to say it was ok to eat a bit more of this and a bit more of that.  Oh a bite extra won’t be bad.  I do believe my odd form of self-sabotage helped me out.  Anyone who reads my blogs knows my determination to do this and do it right.  So when you stop losing and you think you have been doing it right.  You start to reflect and realize..CRAP!   I just booby-trapped the crap outa my losses.   So I made the decision (and not lightly) to go back and do the 5/1 again.  Sort of hated it because my belly was used to being spoiled.  And my mind was all about how I didn’t gain so who cared.  But I care because I am not at my goal, and I was not losing.  THIS WAS NOT RIGHT!  I signed up to lose this weight.  I signed up to keep it off.  I didn’t sign up to give up and remain placid about my losses.  I have 40 something pounds to go.  Why stop after I came so far?  This is forever not for right now.  I think the one thing that has also put me in a funk was the fact that I have not registered one lost inch in soooo long.  I don’t understand.  Cloths fit better but no losses.  It’s so odd.  But I don’t want my hips to be forever in the 40s.  I want to wear jeans that fit me.  I have to get a bigger size because of these voluptuous hips of mine.

Hugs and may the losses be with you

The Three Hour Tour!

So today was day two of the wacky anniversary week.  My husband and I have chosen to do things we always want to do but don’t get to do often if at all.   Today we picked whale watching.  And what was supposed to be three hours turned out to be four and a half. 

We were blessed with some awesome views of whales and dolphins.  About an hour in we finally found two Humpbacks.  But after a quickie glance they decided to stay below.  We moved on and about 10-15 minutes later we ran across three Humpbacks showing off.  We stuck around for about 45 minutes to an hour watching them.  At one point they were like 30 feet away from me.  It was utterly amazing watching something so truly majestic. 

On our way back I was getting all comfy and about to fall asleep when I started to just stare at the water and relax.  I am a nature person.  I find whenever I need to think.  Water is where I go.  It’s kind of like meditating for me.  I watch the waves and think what I need to think.  However my thoughts were interrupted pleasantly when we were told to just look out…Where?  Anywhere!  We had about 150 dolphins everywhere around the boat.  They were frolicking, jumping, surfing our wake.  It was probably one of the most amazing things I have had the chance to see.  But damn if my phone could get a pic of any of this.  I need to buy a real camera.  But guess what?  I got my inheritance check today. Woot!  Guess who is buying a camera.  Must be me!!!

below are two pics where I tried to get some of  the dolphins.  Sorry didnt come out very well.

21 Thousand Steps later

So today was the first day of activities we had set aside for our anniversary.  We went to Newport RI and had a blast walking to all the Mansions. 

However….I is a tool.  I was all worried we wouldn’t find parking near the Mansions.  Since they have narrow roads and small parking areas I figured we would park near the Visitors Center.  DERRRR bad move cupcake.  Then my hubby got us lost walking to the Mansions.  LOL, what a comedy or errors.  So before we even started we had put in over 2 miles just trying to figure out where the H.E double hockey sticks we were. 

I had planned to see one of the Mansions at 0900 when it opened and we ended up finally getting to it at ummmmm 2.  No, not because we got that lost.  Just we figured we would go the furthest mansion first and hit that one last.  By the time we finally got the Breakers we were hardly able to even walk.  Both my husband and I were afraid if we sat down we wouldn’t be able to move again.  Yet we did.  You ever get to that point of exhaustion where you know better but you do it anyway?  Then when you finally get up to move again you hurt even worse than you did before?  Yup we did that not once but TWICE!!  Sigh!  We will never learn. 

But all in all I am very proud of the work out we got in.  I am also positive by the time it is all said and done I will have burned 3000 cals today.  If not already seeing that it was nice and hot today and I was drenched by 10 AM LOL.

Pasting my Fitbit totals cuz I am mighty pound of it.  Almost halfway to my weekly goal in one day!

Daily Totals

Calories 2494

Steps 21690

Distance 8.91 miles

Floors Climbed 24

Below are some pics.  I would have loved to take pics of the inside but we were not allowed.  Best I Can do it link you the website which has some inside pics of each place.  I also still have to go to the Topiary Gardens which is planed for this weekend.

http://www.newportmansions.org/explore/the-breakers There is a list of the Mansions on the left just scroll thru them!

This is the Marble House.  I have to admit the woman who owned this Alva Vanderbilt.  She was truly bad ass in her own way and very scary.  She was the first elite woman to get a devorce.  And made her daughter wear a brace all the time to make sure she had the perfect posture.  When she devoced out of the family she moved out of this house and used it as a "closet"...lol.  If you ask me I would love to live in this closet!

The pool in front of the Marble House.  Was might tempted to go swiming and cool off my sore feet!

She had this Pagoda built also which is amazing but Alva liked "themed" rooms.  This is now a dinning area when you visit the Mansions.

The front of Rosecliffs.  This house made me drool just a little.  I loved how unempossing the inside was.  Very oppulent but at the same time not.  And it had a perfect flow to it.  And there is my hubby forever leaving me behind..lol!

This was the best pic I could take of the Breakers, but there it is!  And again my hubby ditching me LMAO!

The Bad Wife!

A few years ago my hubby was very active when I wasn’t and had lost a lot of weight and was looking positively yummy.  But the little green demon in me piped up and held him back.  He was out mountain biking every weekend all day and I wanted to stay home and watch TV and do nothing.  So I started to tell him how thin he was and that he should gain back more weight.  In retrospect I see I was sabotaging him and his weight loss.  And I am so disgusted with myself.  It just hit me today this memory that I honestly haven’t thought about in years.  But there it was and I can’t take back what I did.

I am not sure exactly why I did it being it was a few years ago.  But I think it was mainly jealousy that started it.  I didn’t want him to leave me because I was a slacker then, and not as cute as I used to be.  And now that he was looking yummy and getting attention from other girls.  I felt it was my only way to hold him back in order to keep him.  Looking back now I see what I did.  And I am ashamed of it.  If anyone does that to me know I walk away.  I found I prefer my health over someone who will hold me back.  I am shocked he didn’t do the same.  And I am so thankful he didn’t. 

Now on my journey I encourage more activity in our lives.  But now he holds back.  He loves how I have blossomed but has chosen to hold back.  Perhaps the lingering memory of my telling him I didn’t like him thin?   What have I done?  Have I ruined him?  I really don’t think so.  He has lost weight while I have been doing Medifast.  But not fast.  In the 10 months So far I have been doing this he has only lost 25 pounds.  Granted it’s not too shabby of an accomplishment.  But when men can lose 25 pounds with just a good pee its rather slow.

I need to find a way to go back and undo the damage that I have caused.  I love my husband.  I truly do.  And he is unhealthy now due to his weight.  But how do I?  If only I could build a time machine and instead of holding him back I could just get out and do stuff with him.  What a better solution that would have been then the one I had previously chosen.

Hugs!

The great Cosmic Joke is on me

It always makes me laugh while I shake my fist to the heavens when I go thru a stall for a month.  I don’t say a peep I just let it ride.  Then the one time I have a tiny vent…BAM!  I lose again.  I guess I should complain every day that I haven’t lost.    I miss those days where I was losing daily…ohhh sooo long ago!  It’s been almost a year that I have been doing Medifast.  And I am completely over it.  I know I shouldn’t rush things.  But I am so tired of it.  But I am staying strong and getting it done.  I know this is blasphemy but OMGEEWIZZ I can’t stand not being able to eat some things anymore.  I want fruit and rice and pasta again.  This may stem from the fact that my anniversary is next week and my Bday is in a few weeks.  It’s all those silly things you can’t do that you normally would.

On the flip side of all of it.  This plan has taught me so much.  I can go out and trust I will make the correct decisions when ordering food.  I can mentally calculate carbs and calories now.   So I fear falling off the wagon but I know the strength is there especially when I am closing on a year.  Which is two frigging months away.  I however pegged to have lost 75 pounds by Sept 3^rd so I am not too far off my plan.  I am hoping however to be in transition by Xmas.   I would again like to have a holiday with a bit more food selection than last years.  I also got notice that my discount is ending soon.  I still get my free shipping for orders over 150 but they took away my 10% discount that I got after 7 months on the plan.  In a way it makes me want to scream.  This is the second time they changed the damn program since I have been doing this.  The first time I didn’t care.  I loved the discount.  Now it will be gone as of next month.  I am not excited to say the least.  I am actually debating on starting transition early because honestly it was a savings even if it wasn’t much of one.  But when you spend 300+ a month to eat.  It’s starting to really affect my wallet.  I have already spent at the minimum of $3000 doing this.  AND I still have to buy cloths as I shrink out of mine.  It’s starting to really rack up my credit card bill.

I have other things to say apart from the incessant complaint above.  But now that I lost all my readers I guess I will say it again in my next blog too.  But I ran 1.2 miles nonstop yesterday.  I am so frigging proud of myself because I had stopped my C25K training after I hurt my calves.  I kid you not I almost started a victory dance on my treadmill with arms raised in victory.  But noooo I kept my cool like I do that every day pfff this is cake.  LOL!  I am going to try for 1.5 tomorrow. 

So off I go to cuddle with my ferrets.

Hugs!

Dang Nabit

I am in another stall.  It’s been a month since my last loss.  Sigh.  I hate when this happens.  I cannot begin to convey how awful it makes you feel.  Only someone who is also losing weight can fully understand this.  It’s like you failed but you’re doing all the right things.  Ok now that’s out of my system I can move on.  Quick vent then” wooo hooo” time.

Today I went to the Y and ran an entire mile without stopping…first time EVER doing that since I was a kid in track.  Of course the next two I walked and ran. But it’s an improvement.  Especially since I really haven’t been training for a while.  I learned today that they Y gives the less shy people the treadmills that hurt next to the windows.  But in the back “hidden” area for the newbies they have treadmills that DON’T hurt me when I use them.  It’s odd but I have noticed this a few times.  So yeahhh me for not being damaged.  However I guess I can consider my favorite cross trainer as still training since its non-stop movement like I was running and sprinting.

I am also about to get rid of my size 14s finally.  I had to buy those two months or so ago when I was forced to buy them or go to work naked.  My 12s I think are a small size 12 because I can fit into some 10s.  So I am officially running out of stuff to wear.  At least my new job understands.  I flat out told them that I don’t want to buy too many cloths since I will have to eventually give them away or toss them.  So why bother.  So I now wear almost the same things over and over and hey yeah over again. 

I am hoping I lose this week because I had seen some slight movement in the scale today. Finally.  I think I need to start switching up my foods more.  Its funny but to ensure I would eat the proscribed amount of greens a day I stuck with the same thing for 6 months.  Spinach is my favorite veggie and I was sure to follow the program if I stuck with that one veggie.  But now I have fallen in love with cucumbers.  I need to switch it up some.  However I know I will start to lose again.  I am looking forward to my last 30 pounds.  I don’t know why but I think those will mean more to me then the first 30.   We will see.

Hugs!!